I’m so glad you’re reading this letter. I’ve been trying to get your attention for some time now, yes – you. You have no idea how I’ve desired to have these few moments together, just you and I – so I could tell you what’s been on my mind – how I feel.
I saw you looking up at the full moon last night. I watched its brilliance dance off the reflection in your eyes. I was trying to get your attention but, your mind was somewhere else; you were worried about something. I wanted nothing more than to be there for you – to hold you and make everything alright. I tried to dry a lone tear from your cheek with the summer breeze from your balcony but, you closed the door and turned on the air conditioning. I watched you as you tossed and turned.
You’re so beautiful when you sleep. Sometimes, when you’re really soundly asleep, I’ll pick you up and hold you; sometimes I’ll even rock you. I just want to be with you.
You got up a couple of times during the night. You didn’t see me at the end of your bed. I wanted to wrap you under my wing and keep the chill off you but you pulled the blanket up over your head.
In the morning, I sent a bird outside your window to serenade you. I guess you didn’t like that song because you put your head between the pillows. I let you sleep a little longer. I wanted so desperately to give you my peace to start your day.
I know things haven’t been all that great for you lately. You’ve been going through some stuff. I hear your secret thoughts. I don’t mean to intrude – it’s just that I love you so much that I just know what you need before you need it. I long to give it to you, but you don’t seem to want ask –not for the really important things anyway. You seem to think that my love comes with strings attached. It doesn’t. I wish I could convince you of that. I won’t give up on you no matter how far away you try and push me. I will never leave you. I will never forsake you. I’m just waiting here at the door. All you have to do is seek me and when you seek me with all your heart, I’ll be found.
I saw you with some of your friends today. You were standing outside complaining about the heat; I sent a little sun shower to cool you off but, then you began complaining about the rain. So, I sent you a rainbow to remind you of my everlasting pledge to you. Someone pointed it out to you and you allowed yourself to enjoy it however briefly. I haven’t seen you smile from your heart for too long. My eyes filled with tears – sorry – but, I made it rain again.
Later on, you were sitting at your computer reading something, kind of the way you are now, you were awe struck – you had a lump in your throat and you tried several times to choke it back. You didn’t realize that what you were trying to keep inside was love. It’s a love I placed inside you before you were born. I gave it to you as a gift – to do with as you pleased but to be honest I was hoping against hope that you would want to share some of it with me. You see love is something that needs expression to grow otherwise it dies. It seeks expression because love grows as it sows. I don’t know what you were reading but it sure had your attention. For a second or two, I was jealous. I wished that you would have fixed your attention that intently on me. I saw another tear roll down your cheek; this time, it was my tear.
I long for you to love even a portion of the love I have for you. I keep sending people to show you and tell you about my love for you because you won’t listen to me, or you don’t believe me. I’m not angry with you. How could I be? My love for you abounds – it knows no limit, no condition. I’m patient. I’ll wait – for as long as it takes, I’ll wait for you to draw near to me and when you do I will draw nearer to you. I will set your feet upon a rock. I will protect you. I will comfort you. I will forgive and forget. I will show you mercy and compassion and clothe you in my unfailing love.
I will wait as long as it takes because I love you.
