The Editor's Testimony
My name is Hope. Prior to October of 2003, after having spent much of my life struggling with addictions, depression, and the psychological effects of having been sexually abused.
I could share some eye-popping stories and memories, but that would be unproductive because I want you to focus on the victory I received when I gave my heart to Jesus.
I was blessed with two awesome sons, but nothing in my past prepared me to be an awesome mother. I cursed and punished myself on a regular basis for all my shortcomings and failures; I was filled with shame over my failed marriage. There was a major lack in my education. I did not know how to have mature and safe relationships with others outside my children. I could go on and on.
At the end of October 2003, filled with desperation and thoughts of suicide - there were times that I believed my boys would be better off with anyone but me. The problem was that I knew no one could love them in the same way I did. And I truly did love them. When your running and getting nowhere - there's a serious issue. Finally, I surrendered my life to Jesus and my trajectory changed. I did not even understand what fully committing my life to Jesus could or should look like.
Obtaining forgiveness from my Heavenly Father was beyond my comprehension. How could God forgive me when I couldn't forgive myself? Why would he send Jesus to the cross to die for me? How did my iota of faith lead me to salvation and eternal life?
Jesus gave me hope at a time when I had none. I was empty and he filled me and loved me and I could never imagine going back to my old life.
I want this for you! And this is why we have put this website together - to give you hope and faith - no matter how minute - that would encourage you and bring you to a saving grace.
Take that step - even if you don't understand fully what you are doing - he will make it known to you.
May God bless you, make his face to shine upon you and give you peace.
"but in your hearts honour Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect." 1 Peter 3:15 ESV